whatever...

I’m in my room, listening to music… now it’s 3 doors down – here without you… I’m not listening to it because it has a link with what I’m feeling right now, I just like it a lot… and It’s a love song…

as usual, i'm sad... it's about me, not my family, not my friends... I sometimes feel like I don’t belong anywhere… like everything doesn’t make sense… I had this feeling before, but I hate it from the bottom of my heart! I hate to hate! But I continue to do it, continue to hate…

I feel like crying a lot. I have already done that, on creep and supergirl, but it was just a bit. I can’t cry anymore. I always say this and I don’t know if it’s true, or I’m just telling it so that I can assure myself that everything is okay… everything is not okay… nothing is…

I wish I would disappear, just to clap my hands or whistle and everything would be over… my problems… my life…

Who is reading this might think of me a wacko or something bad happened to me… no, I’m not pregnant.. wow, i can still make a joke... that's a good thing, or just a step for a better one…

Enough with the chit-chat. What I wanted to say is that, until now, I repressed my feelings, the ones that every person has. I’ve beaten them so far, but tonight, I collapsed… can’t stand it anymore! This is not a ‘I-wanna-kill-myself’ ticket, so the person who is reading this, if somebody is, can chill.

You just have some moments when you think: ‘okay… I was born… now what??’ nothing happened! Nothing is happening! And it’s possible that nothing will happen! ... then, why enjoy life after all? just another thing to occupy your time with... and, in my point of view, waste of time!

Maybe better times will come… who knows? Please, someone tell me if that’s what it’s gonna be… please… people say that we have bad times just so that when we have the good ones, we should learn to appreciate them… whatever… who wants to believe that, be my guest… I don’t… omg, incubus – drive…