stupid changes, stupid time...

let's say you're 14... and you're in the 8th grade and you're one-year distance to go to high school...

well, you have finally got there! everything's so new! new classmates, new teachers, new subjects... you think it's going to be alright, even though you're a little afraid at the beginning...

but, in the 10th grade ( or sometimes in the 9th grade ), after a lot of bad marks, you start to think: 'am i stupid? no, course i'm not. but look at me. a 7 at maths? a 6 at informatics? what happened?...'

in some cases, that might be true ( don't shoot, don't shoot! ), but in MOST cases, it's not your fault... you tried to learn, haven't you? you really did try... but it seems that it was not enough... so, you just say: 'fuck it! i don't need their bull$#!+!' but, you still have to do the homework, which occupies almost all of your free time... don't feel like doing anything, so you sit like a vegetable in front of the computer, talking on messenger, writing something on your blog because you know that the 6 at informatics won't change too soon.

it's not that you're lazy or 'just a teenage kid', but it's that the teachers aren't as you expected at the beginning... so, you just get in a fight with the your parents, with your form teacher, just to have them ( the teachers, doh! ) 'removed'. but, nobody does anything. so, in the end, why bother? just do the homework that you think is the necessary and that's that... or move to another high school..